We've Got to Save the Children...

This random not so random thought is brought to you by a conversation i had with my mom (as a lot of my random thoughts come that way).

My mom was telling me about a conversation she was having with a pregnant coworker about having a child. Mom told the coworker that having a child will change your life. When she said this, other coworkers within ear shot started moaning and growning about sleepless nights and never being able to go out anymore, etc.. But my mom said, no, you don't know what it's like to really experience the love that you will feel towards a child and how that will fill your heart. At this one of her coworkers chimed in "yeah, she always calls her daughter beautiful when they're on the phone and tells her she's wonderful" (blushing). But following this, the coworker said that she was going to start calling her own daughter beautiful, the same way she calls her son handsome (this is not the post where i talk about the devaluation of girl children - that'll come later). So as i thought about this change in her coworker's actions from my mom's example. (my mom is the best) i realized that the problems we see in our children's behavior, starts with the love they are or aren't shown throughout their development. Something as simple as telling your daughter she's beautiful and loved on a regular basis, can make all the difference in how she sees herself, and some of the situations she will allow herself to get into. Telling your son he's brilliant and has a voice, could be the factor in him being a productive citizen or following some scumbag into a life of crime. it's something to think about. if you do these things great, if you don't, why not start, and encourage other parents to do the same. love is stronger than lies.

You've Got the Look

I will be the first to admit, i've got issues, and pretty high on my list of issues is the pain i feel from men, especially black men, who will trample over a regular brown skin woman like myself, to get to the light skin, curly or long hair woman with mixed ethnicity features. When i say trample, i mean that litterally. I have always had friends that fit the light skinned, mixed ethnicity description, clearly, they can't help, nor should they be blamed, for their genetic inheritence, but i have been out with these women and had guys practically ask me to hold their coats, so they could talk to my friend. Really, it's just painful to have it constantly reinforced how beautiful you aren't in the eyes of people that you most want to see you as beautiful. As a potential friend, not just a work horse. I can tell myself i'm beautiful all i want, but if everything outside of my skull says something else, how is that message reinforced?

Ain't I A Woman...

My husband and i spent last night "discussing" feminism, in person and through fb, based on one blog about black male priviledge, that my husband felt was pandering to women and another blog about the Rockefellers Re-engineered Women, that i found presents a very narrow view of womanhood. For your own info, both posts can be found here:

http://jewelwoods.com/node/9
http://www.savethemales.ca/001904.html


I was raised that a man (if you have one, and a real one at that) should be the head of the household. But i was also taught that women control the emotional stability of the household. Now that i have a family of my own, my understanding of this is that men, as more physical creatures, provide the physical security and protection of a home, while women, as more emotional beings, make sure that inside of the home is an energy condusive to nourishing life and promoting growth.

This to me is balance, just like you can't have a sports team where everyone is good at one thing, to have a successful family, i think the differences between you and your partner should be seen as strengths, ways in which you can cover each other's backs. I think my problem is i want to much. I think i'm asking too much for a nurturing love from a man, when that's not where their strength is. I can't expect men to have the same conversations as women, because we are different. As my husband said, i deal with this constant inner conflict of wanting the man to be head of the household, which puts him in a physical position, and also wanting him to be sensitive to me as a woman. You can't always have things both ways. I think women need to do some soul searching and decide what the role is that we really want the men in our lives to play, and stick to it. I firmly believe that if you hold people up to standards, they will rise to the occasion - or go away completely, which is fine because you don't need dead weight. But in making the decision of where we want our men to be, we need to make sure we are prepared to offer the best of ourselves and fulfil our roles also. Life isn't a one-sided show.

The Art of Friendship

I will admit, this concept of "friendship" is something i feel like i struggle with. But in this admittance, i completely acknowledge that these are self inflicted struggles. Life for me is a constant battle of not thinking i'm good enough (i suppose i'll elaborate on that at a later time), so of course the negative thought carries over into how i see myself maintaining (or not) my friendships.

I think most people see me as a social butterfly of sorts, in terms of the amount of people i know and activities of my past. I spent my whole 20s doing videography, writing/performing and organizing parties, events, major tours, etc... and as a result, i've met a bunch of people, in addition to the people you generally meet through friends and family. But now that i'm in my thirties, most of the other activities have fallen away and i strive to focus my energies on raising my son and the wonderful man that puts up with me and all of my madness. However, i still long to have friends, people outside my household that need me. Someone that i can call when one of my cooking experiments goes awry, or i start beating myself up for not writing in the blog i was determined to have, for a week. I'd like to have girlfriends i can call up and say, hey let's go out! and they say yes, just because they enjoy spending time with me. Or friends that make sure i get invites to their social gatherings, birthday parties and such, because, again, they enjoy being in my company. Back to my original statement - i know, these are my issues, there is nothing wrong with the friends i do have, they are great people, but me being me, i always want to know what i can do to make the relationship better. I want to go from a C list friend to an A List friend, and i'm not quite sure how to make that happen.

Taking matters into my own hands, as opposed to sitting around pouting about the situation, i am reaching out to people more. Lately i've started going out again, i really enjoy performing my work, and i found out last thursday, that i'm much better at it now :) So in order to have friends, i'm trying to be a better friend, and not so much of a hermit. When you invite me to your event, i promise i will come, or if i can't, i will absolutely let you know. If you call me, i will call you back (though you'll probably get a quicker response through text or email). Be patient with me, i'm just relearning this dance.

How to Get a Job in 30 Days...or atleast quicker than if you don't follow these instructions :)

I really started to write a book about this a few years ago. If i had i'd probably be rich by now given the current rate of joblessness. (Note to self, next time, follow through on that brilliant idea - lesson learned)

No, i am not making the guarantee that the dream job you've always wanted is going to fall into your lap based on you reading the strategies that i know work for me, but i will tel you, these strategies absolutely do work for me, and i'm pretty happily employed and once i started embracing these strategies, i've never gone more than 30 days without being employed.

1. You are allowed one (1) and only one day to grieve. Get it out your system, cry if you need to. You got fired, layed off, quit so you wouldn't shoot someone and wind up in jail, whatever your reasons from transitioning from your last work place, allow yourself a day to feel that. But after that day, you need to let go, you have the rest of your life to live.

2. Focus! Focus! Focus! Failure is not an option. You have to believe with every fiber of your being that you will succeed in your job search, because if you don't believe it, how will anyone else. My suggestions for staying in the proper mindstate, surround yourself with positivity. Listen to music with positive messages - one of my favorite is "Get Yourself Up" by KRS One. Start a fitness routine, maybe running everymorning, so that you stay in the habit of waking up and getting out of bed and being productive. The absolute last thing you want to do is lay in bed all day. Laying around makes it way too easy to fall back into the grieving stage, and you need to move on with the rest of your life. With every job application you send, whether it's one or 100, you need to have firm confidence that you are the right fit for the position and the hiring manager will call you back.

3. Go the extra mile when sending out your resume. Each cover letter and resume should specifically reflect the skills/qualities being looked for in that position. Make sure it is tailored to the company, do some research on the company itself, even before you send your resume/cover letter - and ALWAYS spell check.

3. Do the research. At this point, you are focused and confident in yourself, you've sent this amazing, tailored resume, so the HR person has called you in for an interview. Research the company to the point where you would feel comfortable writing atleast a 2 to 3 page report on them. This research not only makes you look good in the interview, but will also solidify in your mind if this company is really the right fit for you. It will also give you more to talk about and questions to ask in the interview. Note - if you don't care enough about the company to do this, you probably don't want the job

4. Be friendly during the interview. Don't be afraid to be yourself, smile, make (office appropriate) jokes, and really read the person interviweing you to find out what you need to present to them about yourself that will make you memorable and put you in the best light. I cannot stress enough how important it is for the person you interview with to have positive memories of you. You want them to go back through their list of applicants and see your name and smile, knowing you're the one.

5. If you really want it, absolutely follow up. During the interview you should have found out when they expect to make a decision, or when you should hear from them. If this day occurs, call or email after 2pm to see where they are in the process. This shows you are still interested and keeps you fresh in their minds if they're still sorting through applicants.

6. Know your worth! Don't low ball yourself. When salary is discussed, you should know what the average salary is of someone in the field and based on your own qualifications make your demand. Do not worry about asking for too much. What i've found is that if a company wants you there, they'll pay you what you're worth, and if they don't, why would you want to be there.

I hope this helps those of you in the job market. I know it's hard to maintain confidence, but you've got to remember, the universe is mental, you have to believe in yourself before other's will.

Also - when you go to the interview, please dress appropriately, this should be self evident, but just in case...

Sex and the Single Body Part

You ever notice that when watching TV or movies and a couple is having sex, there are always these seamless transitions. They can go from walking in the door, to sprawled out on the bed or couch without a glitch. Or lying in bed next to each other, to magically intertwined, all hair and limbs in place. What i have found, is that real life is nothing like that.

My husband and i will lie in bed and give each other "the look", then we snuggle a little closer, but inevitably, there is an arm at an awkward position. generally my elbow winds up smacking into his forehead, or pressed at some weird angle against my chest,or maybe he headbutts my nose. point being, while it's always fun, it's definitely not the seamless transitions promoted through media.

I need a show, Really Real Sex - clearly for adults, that shows couples going on dates, coming home, and flopping on the couch, then you see the side collapse. Jumping on the bed and you hear the middle bar break. I want them to show how it really is; you go to snuggle and one of the partners turns away because of bad breath, not all this phony baloney stuff with perfect music and lighting. Really Real Sex coming soon on HBO, so the rest of us realize, we've been doing it right all along :)

Finally...

So...i've been messing around trying to get this blog thing figured out for a minute. I finally decided, to heck with it being perfect, it's more important to actually just do it, so to speak, than have things be perfect. so, much like my life, this blog will be a work in progress. thank you for playing :)