Sunday, March 14, 2010

Not Owning Selfish


i'll be the first to admit, i probably need to let a lot of stuff go. much like the clothes in my closet, i need to pull everything out and be honest about what does work and doesn't, and anything that doesn't needs to get tossed. i've been doing this somewhate emotionally, but i got stuck on selfish. i've been called selfish, and really, i just don't se it and i'm not owning it. there are absolutely times when i have acted in a selfish way, but i think we all do at times, however, my general characteristic is not one of selfishness. i don't yell on a mountain top the personal sacrifices i've made, there's no need to for me, i did them because that's what needed to get done, because some aren't aware of those sacrifices, i'm not going to allow myself to feel victimization by not being understood and classified as selfish because i think differently than others.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

yeah yeah, i'm a slacker


so i haven't posted since dec...that kinda sucks. i still don't really have anything to say, i just want to stop ignoring the fact that i have a blog. i want to write and express myself, but apparently everything has to happen through the filter of not offending people. i'm sorry, i'm kinda offensive. i have a real asshole side that i need to be able to let out at times, so i can go back to kumbayaing. so hello world. i'll try to do better :)